One Year Later...

Today marks one year that I have been off of my anti-seizure medication! The year flew by so fast I can hardly believe it has been that long. I am so amazingly blessed by what God has done in me in the last year. It is interesting how many people who met me while I was on medication have commented that they never saw me laugh and smile as much as they do now. I know that my family has benefited greatly now that my attitude has improved. As many of you know, when the wife/mom isn't happy the mood of the entire family is affected. Now I have so much more patience and joy. I finally have my life back and can be myself. I thank God for carrying me every step of the way. I know I could not have gotten through it without Him and I am so thankful for they way in which my faith grew during that time.

A friend of mine recently sent me a CD that one of the worship leaders at their church recorded. His name is Ryan Axtell and the CD, This Valley is amazing. You can check him out here. One of the songs on the CD entitled Right By My Side reminds me so much of my struggle when I was dealing with the seizures and the side affects of the medication. Here are the lyrics:

This pain is more than I can bear

It's tearing me apart.

I'm close to caving in.

I try to push away the fear

to keep appearances

to fight away the tears.

I pray this night will fade to gray

but I can't see the dawn

and my strength is running out.

But You're here with me

You're here with me

Right by my side

You'll never leave

This sorrow's more than I can take

my heart's been ripped apart

and I'm close to blowing up.

I've used all my ability

my plans and safety nets

and found I'm not enough.

Sometimes I can't tell what I feel

or where I really stand,

what I truly believe.

But You're here with me

You're here with me

Right by my side

You'll never leave

You're here with me

You're here with me

Right by my side

You'll never leave

Well, I've tried to make it on my own

to keep it all afloat

but my ship has sprung a leak.

These times have brought me to my knees

and though they're cut and sore

it's where I need to be

For You're here with me

You're here with me

Right by my side

You'll never leave

Thank you to all of you who have ever prayed for me and my family. I appreciate it more than I can say.